Picnic

Today, we didn't have normal college class...we went to the Lake Gardens to draw...which is not much of an improvement over normal classes but it was a different experience and interestingly, quite a number of things happened. Significant enough for me to remember and to want to write it down la...

Well, first thing was that we only found out we were going to the Lake Gardens 10 minutes before we actually left. We all heard Kiara Park so we prepared to call in Domino's Pizza but now since plns have changed, our delivery also changed and we ended up with no food la. The Brain** being his usual jerk self, he went straight to the cafeteria and grabbed the two last nasi lemak for himself...selfish prick...i thought he could at least care whether another person would want one of the nasi lemak...he jolly well should care cos he's the class rep wert...but no, it's to each his own and you starve, you starve la.

Then, the sweetest thing was, i called BouncingNinjaTurtle to complain about this la as usual...and he actually came and brought the pizza...i mean he brought it around 2pm but its okay man...at that time, whatever food i could get was a blessing alredi. Isn't he the sweetest little thing around??? i love him sooooo much...

After that, MsGL recieved a call...some emergency family problem la...and the van wasn't here yet so she asked BouncingNinjaTurtle whether he could send her to Taman Tun... and he did!!! Isn't he the sweetest?? So nice la...Muahx to my baby!!!

yeah...overall it was a day of revelation...some of us got closer, we found out more things about each other, we let others see a little into our past and present, and i really enjoyed it.

Har Har Hair!!!

I got my hair cut...and as usual, the stylist cuts it much shorter than i told her to....so irritating...now the fringe is so short i look like a kawaii japanese bimbo wannabe. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Movie Marathon

I just finished 3 movies in a row! I started at about 12pm and now it's 6pm...got the whole night long so more movies to come!!! YAY!! I'm actually supposed to be doing my project...which i am...i find that watching other creative things aid my creative mind...otherwise it just takes a whole really long time to finish 12 leeetle squares...
The first movie i watched was Casper. I remember i used to love this movie *i still do* and my grandma taped it on video tape for me when i was younger but then as i grew, the tape just kinda disappeared and then so many versions of Casper came about that i never really found the original one...but well, i found it!!! The 2nd movie was Sabrina. I wanted to watch the cheaper version, which is on Astro but i missed the last day that it was showing back in April...So i bought the cd and tada!!! Classic tale of rich guy and poor girl...The 3rd was The Bodyguard. Back when Whitney Houston was still young and not that addicted to crack yet...Another classic tale of the weak woman and her protector...sigh...all these movies....

My Friends

Well, i have three bunches of friends i wanna tell you about...The old is gold group...from SRK Seri Mega right up to SMK Taman Yarl... The happening group...for the two years that i've been in SMK SASamad, havoc!!! and last but not least... The college group... who i have had the privilege of spending the last three weeks with and will probably spend the next 4 years with...

The old is gold group

1. GirlGuide
She was, is and is still gonna be my number one best friend of them all. She's funny, sarcastic *just my cup of tea* She's not a very big confider but she's a really good listener and it's amazing how she's put up with my crap for the last 11 years...

2. AshTheGreat
She is one smart lady. Articulate...scholarship winner...just a little short of a genius. Used to be my rival for this guy wthat we liked...fell out cos of some drama that happened between us...but now, we're older, not so young and emo...so we're cool!

3. CCY
She's wacky, a maniac....but she's funny...and she's so tall....

Samad Rocks

1. Bils
My second most best friend. She's short, sweet and cute...and drop dead gorgeous! Such a hit with the guys. We met through mutual friends, we were both new girl in school and ran into sum trouble...but we stuck it out together and made it through and found better friends to be with. She's loyal...and sarkie too!!! Just the type to have fun with!!!

2. PrincessAiYee
She's my baby girl!!! She's so cute and pretty and dainty....so thin....she loves shopping!!! but it's no fun shopping with her sumtimes cos she's got so much money to spend and makes me so jealous...=( She's so loyal...been with her man for so long...probably gonna get married...hehehe...so chweet!!!

3. Shar-k
She's one hot sexy mama!!! she's got loads of admirer's following after her...Leo prez...very responsible girl....she's very nice!!!

4. TheMonthOfJune
She's so intelligent!!! she's lika a super brainiac!!! it's crazeeeeeeeeee!!! Remember the times we spent at your house before uncle picks us up to go to tuition...so nuts...

5. Chayz
Always with Sam....never without him....she's also a super genius....sigh....she's so quiet too

College Mates

1. Martin
He's a very nice guy....from Malacca....always laughing and has a smile on his face permanently....quite cool la his hair

2. Adelyn
She's also from Malacca...same place as Martin...she's nice...but sumtimes she likes to laugh at totally weird times...but her laughter is so contagious that we laugh along anyway even though we have no idea what she's laughing about.

3. PST
She's cool...got a really cool laptop...always making jokes....hehehe....looks like a hamster when she has food in her mouth...

4. Zizi!!!!

more coming....

Girl

Dedicating this song to all my girls...

Take a minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy
We've Seen This All Before
But He's Taking Advantage Of Your Passion
Because We've Come Too Far
For You To Feel Alone
You Don't Let Him Walk Over Your Heart
I'm Telling You

Girl, I Can Tell You've Been Crying
And You Needing Someone To Talk To
Girl, I Can Tell He's Been Lying
And Pretending That He's Faithful And He Loves You
Girl, You Don't Have To Be Hiding
Don't You Be Ashamed To Say He Hurt You
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're Your Girls
Want You To Know That We Love You

See What You All Don't Know About Him
Is I Can't Let Him Go Because He Needs Me
It Ain't Really Him It's Stress From His Job
And I Ain't Making It Easy
I Know You See Him Bugging On Me Sometimes
But I Know He Be Tired He Don't Mean It
It Gets Hard Sometimes
But I Need My Man
I Don't Think Ya'll Understand
I'm Telling You

Girl, Take A Good Look At Yourself
He Got You Going Through Hell
We Ain't Never Seen You Down Like This
What You Mean You Don't Need Our Help?
We Known Each other Too Well

So Bad!!!

I was supposed to meet my old school friends from SMK SA Samad the previous Monday...it was a public holiday and well, they wanted to meet up la. Cos we haven't seen each other (at least, i haven't) for yonks... But then i overslept *nothing unusual* and i missed the thing. I feel really bad la...especially cos of PrincessAiYee. Sigh...why do these things happen on these kinda days...

I guess old is gold and i miss my SMK Taman Yarl girlfriends...met ccy when we went for our driving test together. But thats the only girl i've met since AshTheGreat, CCY, PrettyInPink and i went to KLCC...but that was also yonks ago. i guess holidays sould be around August or September and i hope to see them then. We had so much fun..

Undecided

I just realised that a quarter of my class transferred from business/engineering cos they found it too hard and a quarter more are transferring out to business/engineering because they find it too hard...GO FIGURE!!!

I miss my girls...

They're all off in different places...they are the kind who know what they really wanna do...and are seriously contemplating on places where they can make the most out of it..If any of you are reading this, I MISS YOU GUYS!!! *drop me a comment or something*

Since You've Been Gone

This song...hahaha...this is for those guys who think their girls are sooooo adoring and are so in love with them... for those guys whose egos are bigger than their you know whats...for those guys, i tell you, take it and shove it up yours!!!

Since You've Been Gone" by Kelly Clarkson

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've Been Gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Friends

Pillars Of Strength
I have always believed in the great power of encouragement that girl friends bring to you in your walk to becoming the person you're suppose to be. It doesn't matter where you've been, they are somehow the ones that can bring you back and make you feel loved at the end of the day. I am one to testify of these great friendships...

When it comes to love, I have seen my fair share and yes, there has been a point where I just wanted to throw it all in. I have gone from being an optimist to a pessimist...from hopeful to cynical. But I don't have any regrets whatsoever because I know these feelings and experiences are teaching me and painting the bigger picture of my life.

Just when I thought I wanted to give up, my dear friend Erin gives me this bookmark with the thought of the day by Maya Angelou. It said, "Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time". It has so much meaning to me because of what I've gone through. I will admit that I have wanted to give up, but just looking at this bookmark, I am encouraged to pick myself up again and give love just one more chance. I am ready to fight the good fight again...Erin, Thank you! To women who have lost faith in love, don't give up! You only have one life to live, so live it.

To the rest of my girl friends who have been my pillar of strength, you mean much to me and I am forever grateful that God created you and that our paths crossed.Thank you and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

posted by DramaQueenDrea at 12:54 AM

My friend, DramaQueenDrea wrote this in her blog...http://andrealingling.blogspot.com/... by the way, i'm Erin...i'm glad i have made some tiny difference in someone else's life. My mother says that you're supposed to live like ur dying and care for people, so that at your funeral, there will be people who want to be there...not just people who are there out of duty. Well, up to the day i read her blog, i have never felt like i really made a difference anywhere on anybody's life...so i thank you, andy, for honouring me...

Different Now

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Saw me drivin by just the other day,
I was riding in my car & my hands were raised
By the way that I was rockin
You thought I was bumpin biggie and jay
But I was steady spinnin faith cause I could praise for days
You hollared at me I was at the light,
Said I was looking fly & asked what's up tonite
I said i know you used to see me at the clubs til three
But I don't kick it like I did cause there's a change in me

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Some of my girls I hadn't seen in a while
Saw them at the mall and we traded hugs and a smile
They said we hear you're doing well you seem so confident
I told them that it wasn't me but it is heaven sent
I saw confusion in there eyes,
Said i'm living fine no compromise
I don't talk I don't dress like I did before
But if you give me just a second I will tell you more

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

I am not the same, God has changed the game
Found that it's okay, I don't have to live that way
I am not the same, God has changed the game
You know it's okay, you don't have to live that way

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I changed some how,
you like the way I hold it down,
But, I got what you need

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

I Need Prozac!

Today, my lecturer said i need to 'be more explorative'...i'm not sure whether that's the correct version of the word but that's the word she used. I need to explore more into the strokes, the variations, the designs... We spent the whole day making 40 funny looking prints onto 40 little squares of cartridge paper and we reproduced and enlarged 8 of those designs and made 4 jigsaw puzzles out of them. ART! i have to admit, it was art. Very kindergarten art...but art nonetheless. I'm no Picasso but i certainly tried my Da Vinci best but guess that was not enough. Well, that's not a very positive attitude to bring into the new semester but well, that's just how i feel. Sad and Depressed...

Tangled

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
i'm the one thats honking at you cuz i left late again

Could you see i want you by the way i push you away
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more about me
gotta know reverse psychology
i'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
i'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

Could you see i want you by the way i push you away
don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
get tangled up in me

you think that you know me
you think that i'm only
when everything i do is only to get tangled up in you

You wanna know more,more, more about me
i'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet

could you see i want you by the way i push you away
don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
Get tangled up in me

This song says it all. Stupid guys...they'll never get it even after a
girl sings it out on international radios to them