The anger has subsided.
Actually it subsided last night, while i was praying.
And i actually thought that pride was my biggest problem.
No way.
It's anger.
I'm such an easy target for the prowling lion.
Once i get angry, then he just adds more fuel.
Thank God i have God.
Always ready with arms wide open and a fire extinguisher.
[on a different note]
My travel plans have been screwed up.
It really sucks, it really really does.
I'm so disappointed.
I've been looking forward to it so SO much.
But i'm just gonna do it alone.
My friend, TheBlur, he said it's so depressing to eat alone, go out alone, do things alone that he almost never does it alone.
But i've been doing it alone for so long, it doesn't feel like much to me.
So this shouldn't be any different.
[little conscience cricket]
'aw, but its so far away. you really shouldn't travel alone like this. it's dangerous. and such.'
Sigh. What to do.
So now is to decide whether to go this coming monday or the week before my parents go.
And where to stay.
Sigh, so long blog, i'll off to plan my itinerary.
Actually it subsided last night, while i was praying.
And i actually thought that pride was my biggest problem.
No way.
It's anger.
I'm such an easy target for the prowling lion.
Once i get angry, then he just adds more fuel.
Thank God i have God.
Always ready with arms wide open and a fire extinguisher.
[on a different note]
My travel plans have been screwed up.
It really sucks, it really really does.
I'm so disappointed.
I've been looking forward to it so SO much.
But i'm just gonna do it alone.
My friend, TheBlur, he said it's so depressing to eat alone, go out alone, do things alone that he almost never does it alone.
But i've been doing it alone for so long, it doesn't feel like much to me.
So this shouldn't be any different.
[little conscience cricket]
'aw, but its so far away. you really shouldn't travel alone like this. it's dangerous. and such.'
Sigh. What to do.
So now is to decide whether to go this coming monday or the week before my parents go.
And where to stay.
Sigh, so long blog, i'll off to plan my itinerary.
gimme a weatherman - to warn me about the foul winds ahead, pleasemen - to shoot down the criminals in my head and a doctor - to treat the scars...
ReplyDeletei think i'm haemorrhagging.
gah...
Hey, sweetie. Don't worry so much, ok? I know how you feel. It's easy to tell people to follow their hearts and do what they truly love. But it takes so much courage to take that giant leap. And I'm proud of you. As much as it is important to love others, you need to love yourself enough to make the right decisions for you. One cannot love others if they do not know how to love themselves. (and *psst* I, too, often cry when angered).
ReplyDeleteIf you're travelling alone, take care of yourself, ok? Tell me when you are going. MAKE SURE TO TELL ME!!!!
love ya!