Struggling to get to grips

With all these disturbing thoughts lingering in my head ALL the time, i've been having a hard time concentrating on much preparation. I feel like a schizophrenic psycho hormonal PMSing pregnant woman (i'm not) cos i'm mood swinging from one end of happy to soon be married and upset with all the dingbat things going on.

Can you all please... please just do me a favor and help me focus? If you're not part of the solution, you're probably part of the problem. Help me remember that my dream wedding is essentially one with Adrian in it. (That does not give you license to mess with my wedding by the way, just for your info).