Undecided

I just realised that a quarter of my class transferred from business/engineering cos they found it too hard and a quarter more are transferring out to business/engineering because they find it too hard...GO FIGURE!!!

I miss my girls...

They're all off in different places...they are the kind who know what they really wanna do...and are seriously contemplating on places where they can make the most out of it..If any of you are reading this, I MISS YOU GUYS!!! *drop me a comment or something*

Since You've Been Gone

This song...hahaha...this is for those guys who think their girls are sooooo adoring and are so in love with them... for those guys whose egos are bigger than their you know whats...for those guys, i tell you, take it and shove it up yours!!!

Since You've Been Gone" by Kelly Clarkson

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've Been Gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Friends

Pillars Of Strength
I have always believed in the great power of encouragement that girl friends bring to you in your walk to becoming the person you're suppose to be. It doesn't matter where you've been, they are somehow the ones that can bring you back and make you feel loved at the end of the day. I am one to testify of these great friendships...

When it comes to love, I have seen my fair share and yes, there has been a point where I just wanted to throw it all in. I have gone from being an optimist to a pessimist...from hopeful to cynical. But I don't have any regrets whatsoever because I know these feelings and experiences are teaching me and painting the bigger picture of my life.

Just when I thought I wanted to give up, my dear friend Erin gives me this bookmark with the thought of the day by Maya Angelou. It said, "Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time". It has so much meaning to me because of what I've gone through. I will admit that I have wanted to give up, but just looking at this bookmark, I am encouraged to pick myself up again and give love just one more chance. I am ready to fight the good fight again...Erin, Thank you! To women who have lost faith in love, don't give up! You only have one life to live, so live it.

To the rest of my girl friends who have been my pillar of strength, you mean much to me and I am forever grateful that God created you and that our paths crossed.Thank you and I love you from the bottom of my heart.

posted by DramaQueenDrea at 12:54 AM

My friend, DramaQueenDrea wrote this in her blog...http://andrealingling.blogspot.com/... by the way, i'm Erin...i'm glad i have made some tiny difference in someone else's life. My mother says that you're supposed to live like ur dying and care for people, so that at your funeral, there will be people who want to be there...not just people who are there out of duty. Well, up to the day i read her blog, i have never felt like i really made a difference anywhere on anybody's life...so i thank you, andy, for honouring me...

Different Now

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Saw me drivin by just the other day,
I was riding in my car & my hands were raised
By the way that I was rockin
You thought I was bumpin biggie and jay
But I was steady spinnin faith cause I could praise for days
You hollared at me I was at the light,
Said I was looking fly & asked what's up tonite
I said i know you used to see me at the clubs til three
But I don't kick it like I did cause there's a change in me

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Some of my girls I hadn't seen in a while
Saw them at the mall and we traded hugs and a smile
They said we hear you're doing well you seem so confident
I told them that it wasn't me but it is heaven sent
I saw confusion in there eyes,
Said i'm living fine no compromise
I don't talk I don't dress like I did before
But if you give me just a second I will tell you more

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

I am not the same, God has changed the game
Found that it's okay, I don't have to live that way
I am not the same, God has changed the game
You know it's okay, you don't have to live that way

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I changed some how,
you like the way I hold it down,
But, I got what you need

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

Everything is different now,
Look at me and you can see I've changed somehow
You might think it's strange the way I hold it down
But I know (I know you want it),
and you know (I know you know) I got what you need
My life is different now,
Look at you & I can see you're wonderin how
Though you think it's strange the way I hold it down
Know I know, (I know you want it) & i know (I know you know)
I got what you need

I Need Prozac!

Today, my lecturer said i need to 'be more explorative'...i'm not sure whether that's the correct version of the word but that's the word she used. I need to explore more into the strokes, the variations, the designs... We spent the whole day making 40 funny looking prints onto 40 little squares of cartridge paper and we reproduced and enlarged 8 of those designs and made 4 jigsaw puzzles out of them. ART! i have to admit, it was art. Very kindergarten art...but art nonetheless. I'm no Picasso but i certainly tried my Da Vinci best but guess that was not enough. Well, that's not a very positive attitude to bring into the new semester but well, that's just how i feel. Sad and Depressed...

Tangled

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
i'm the one thats honking at you cuz i left late again

Could you see i want you by the way i push you away
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more about me
gotta know reverse psychology
i'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
i'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

Could you see i want you by the way i push you away
don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
get tangled up in me

you think that you know me
you think that i'm only
when everything i do is only to get tangled up in you

You wanna know more,more, more about me
i'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet

could you see i want you by the way i push you away
don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm acting today
mix the words up with the actions, i do it all for your reaction
Get tangled up in me

This song says it all. Stupid guys...they'll never get it even after a
girl sings it out on international radios to them

Men!

Sometime's i really wonder whether it's all men that are stupid or it's women who are stupider for loving stupid men. I must be one of those really stupid women who just so happens to get an extremely smart man, who's just as stupid as all the others on the inside. ARGH!

BouncingNinjaTurtle, i love you...but sometimes...


YOU REALLY GET ON MY NERVES!!!!

this was the whole closet and apology thing which i will tell when i'm calmer next time. ERGH! MEN!!!

College Life

Somehow i find myself cheated into a five day week, nine to five college course...not that i won't enjoy it of course, i love all things to do with building and creating things...BUT...

i know, i just sensed the "BUT" coming...

i can't do anything for AFC during the week now (by the way AFC is All For Christ Creative Evangelism Team) and that just sucks! And, i'm in charge of camp this year, and i won't have as much time to help out with so many things too...and that sucks too! Apparently, the college's excuse was that its to ease us into working life....i know... it'll probably help alot...but...IT SUCKS!!!

My first blog!

Yes i know, i know...i finally gave in to this whole blog fad. Andrea, if you're reading, this post is for you...STOP LAUGHING! I'm still not sure about the whole blogging your whole life story, sob story whatever but i guess i'll get used to it.

I just started college by the way, and it's so upsetting that the art & design department has no halfway decent looking guys at all. If anything, if i get desperate enough, i'll have to walk all the way over to the engineering department to catch a glimpse of those really hunky guys from overseas...why, oh why do all the nerds get the good looking guys?

Actually, correction: no the nerds don't get the cute guys. I checked out the engineering department and do you know that there are absolutely NO GIRLS!!! What a....i'm disappointed really. Sigh...What a put down to the female gender.

Lessons from an Oyster

"There once was an oyster
Whose story I tell,
Who found that some sand
Had got into his shell.

It was only a grain,
But it gave him great pain.
For oysters have feelings
Although they're so plain.

Now, did he berate
The harsh workings of fate
That had brought him
To such a deplorable state?

Did he curse at the government,
Cry for election,
And claim that the sea should
Have given him protection?

"NO!" he said to himself
As he lay on a shell,
Since I cannot remove it,
I shall try to improve it.

Now the years have rolled around,
As the years always do,
And he came to his ultimate
Destiny stew.

And the small grain of sand
That had bothered him so
Was a beautiful pearl
All richly aglow.

Now the tale has a moral,
For isn't it grand
What an oyster can do
With a morsel of sand?

What couldn't we do
If we'd only begin
With some of the things
That get under our skin?"

God's Letter to a Woman

When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them
into being.
When I created man, I formed him and breathed life
into his nostrils.
But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the
breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too
delicate.
I allowed a deep sleep to come over him
so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.
Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere
with the creativity.
From one bone, I fashioned you.
I chose the bone that protects man's life.
I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs
and supports him,
as you are meant to do.
Around this one bone, I shaped you....... I modeled
you.
I created you perfectly and beautifully.
Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet
delicate and fragile.
You provide protection for the most delicate organ in
man, his heart.
His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold
the breath of life.
The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before it
will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib
cage supports the body.
You were not taken from his feet, to be under him,
nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.
You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and
be held close to his side.
You are my perfect angel.....You are my beautiful
little girl.
You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence,
and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your
heart.
Your eyes...don't change them.
Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose, so perfect in form.
Your hands so gentle to touch. I've caressed your
face in your deepest sleep.
I've held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.
Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he
was lonely.
He could not See me or touch me. He could only feel
me.
So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience
with me, I fashioned in you; my Holiness, my Strength,
my Purity, my Love, my Protection and Support.
You are special because you are an extension of me.
Man represents my image, woman my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God.
So man......treat woman well.
Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting
her, you hurt me.
What you do to her, you do to me.
In crushing her, you only damage your own heart;
the heart of your Father, and the heart of her
Father.
Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power
of emotion
I have given you.
In gentle quietness, show your strength.
In love, show him that you are the rib that protects
his inner self.
Did you not know that WOMAN is special in God's eyes?

A Poem for us

I shave my legs,
I sit down to pee,
and I justify
any shopping spree.

don't go to a barber,
but to a beauty salon,
I can get a massage,
without a hard-on.

I can balance the checkbook,
I can pump my own gas,
can talk to my friends,
about the size of my ass.

My beauty 's a masterpiece,
and yes, it takes long
at least I can admit,
to others when I'm wrong.


I don't drive in circles,
at any cost,
and I don't have a problem
admitting I' m lost.

I never forget
an important date,
you just gotta deal with it,
I'm usually late.

I don't watch movies
with lots of gore,
don't need instant replay
to remember the scene.

I won't lose my hair,
I don't get jock itch,
and just cause I am assertive
don't call me bitch!

don't say it to your friends,
Oh yeah,I can get her.
In you dreams ,my dear,
I can do better!

Flowers are okay,
But jewelry's best,
look at me, you idiot!!
not at my chest!!

I don't have a problem
with expressing my feelings,
I know when you 're lying,
you look at the ceiling.

Don't call me a Gurl,
A Babe or A Chick,
I AM A WOMAN....
GET IT, YOU DICK!!!!!

Just a little poem that Nora let us read....funny....