Man!

Hah, you cannot imagine the absolute relief i gleefully feel in knowing that i only have two more days of exams before the ONE WEEK HOLIDAY. -i know its very little, but oh well. Take joy in the small things as well -

I'm already imagining in my mind the things i wanna try out during the holidays. I've got some oh so faux leather which i'm thinking i should quilt before doing anything to it. Like the Burberry effect. So maybe a clutch purse or a small bag. Then i also wanna try out Case's skirt plan -YAY! i'm so looking forward to a new skirt-

And before u ask, Case is a nickname i now give a new friend from college. She's totally cute and if i had better skin, i would wear all her clothes. Haha we have totally similar taste and wo both love to experiment with more than what the course requires. Will probably write more about her as i get to know her better in school. However, i doubt we'll be taking the same classes in future though =( cos she's one semester "younger" haha

Alrighty, back to work for me. Ciaoz

Sometimes i wish

Sometimes i wish i could start over everything with a clean slate
so i can try and get everything right this time 'round.

Sometimes i wish i never met you
so i don't have to be so confused and upset.

Sometimes i wish you could just take me as i am
and be happy.

Sometimes i wish i wasn't so ugly
so you could love me.

Sometimes i wish i was a stronger, better person
so i don't have to hear you nag.

Sometimes i wish you could see what i do
instead of only seeing my faults, everything i do wrong.

Sometimes i wish i could do more
for me and also so you would stop.

Sometimes i wish i were dead
so i wouldn't have to live.

Sometimes i wish a lot of things
but they rarely come true.

Slouchy Effortless

I think this is the theme of my season : Slouchy Effortless

I like the casual, can't be bothered look that seems almost effortless. The boyfriend pants, flat boots, smock tops and hairbands just do it for me currently. A bit of tailored pieces plus loads of don't care attitude just rocks!

Sigh. People just don't get it. Sometimes its not that we don't want to do something, sometimes we can't. Like me. I have too many things to do, too little time to do it. All my friends - and when i say friends, i mean my real friends - complain about why i never meet up with them anymore, why i don't come online and why when i do, i don't answer or talk to anybody. Sheesh, you think i like it this way? I wish everyday that i can just go out everyday, dance like mad, meet everyone, AND finish my coursework. But oh well, so much for wishful thinking.

So it really pisses me off when people ask so much more of me when i'm not free to do whatever. You know when i am free, sometimes i offer to do something. But people say i'll get back to you and only get back to me when i'm not free anymore. It's really dumb la. I can't live on your time.

To me, the higher priority lies elsewhere. So i think in this case, you guys have to live with it.
And i refuse to feel guilty at all. Cos i believe where i am now is where i'm called to be.

Sigh. Why must people guilt trip? Why must i feel guilty, is the more honest question. You know, it's difficult. Difficult to choose which calling to answer. I believe i am called to both, but just that it is more important for me to concentrate on one.

Sometimes i wonder whether it's worth working at anymore.

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I want to move out.

I want to move to New York.

HAH.

We'll see how that goes. Once i get to make good stuff, i'll be finishing up my portfolio and sending it to CSM or Parsons. ASAP. And the sooner i get out of here, the better.

I'm just sick and tired of this place. Today, i had so much trouble just to decide on what to eat, cos i've eaten at all these places dozens of times. Then i remember people who have no choice what to eat and i shrink back and feel absolutely evil.

Ah,well. i'm just in for something new.

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I'm turning over a new leaf. And this leaf is NOT a trait for a fashion loving design student.
It's ... saving.

AHHHH! I look at something nice and i can't buy it. Cos my conscience eats and eats at me until i don't want to buy it anymore. It's terrible! I feel so suppressed. (How blonde can i be? Complaining over the lack of shopping , sheesh)

Anyway, it's good. Please keep encouraging this trait in me, everyone.

Hey all, sorry for abandoning you. I've been really busy lately with my finals and final project due soon. Weekends...huh? What weekends? Haven't seen many weekends. There isn't much to look forward to except for more work, more studying and more wishing i could just laze around all day.

ARGH!

Help?
I'm being robbed of personal time.

Oh well. Nothing i can do about that. thank goodness for the week of holiday coming up soon.
Okay, that's enough whining for one post, Erin.

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Caught a couple of movies though and i found an interesting book. Well, it's interesting enough for BouncingNinjaTurtle to say its interesting so it must be.
Saw Primeval, which was entertaining enough
- i say that because ANY horror, thriller, or whatever thats scary - is enough to keep me from a similar movie for months.

Watching me watch scary movies - now THAT'S real entertainment.

There were some interesting (Wow, that's the fourth time i'm using 'interesting'. I must be feeling real articulate today -_-") lines in the show, although mostly spoken by the token black funny dude.

You know, that croc's a lot like OJ. He made a mistake when he killed that white woman.

I'm never gonna say this in front of a bunch of white people. Slavery was a good thing. Anything to get the fuck out of Africa is a good thing.

He had the best lines, this guy. Ah well, a consolation prize for being token funny black dude, maybe.

Also, 300. 300 was good. Really good. Abit lazy to write about it tho, so i'll leave u all to watch it without a spoiler...but not for long! Hehe, will be back.

heeee

Doing my thing!

Hey people,

I set up a new site to show what i've done so far. It's not perfect yet but just for all of you to see. If any of you are interested in anything, let me know and i'll try and fit you in.

(Click here to go to my site)

Thanks for your support so far! I've sold quite a few things already so yay!

~Just me

Ridiculous things

Have you noticed ladies' exercise wear lately? it seems to be shrinking smaller and smaller each season.

fruits of my labor

here's a bag that i made myself. although i have to say its a bit too shallow and abit too wide.

Anyway, update!

Just came back from Swen's party!
SHOUT OUT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEN!!!

Then there was Ash's party too.
SHOUT OUT: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASH!!!

Haha, Ash's party was okay, even though it was kinda separated into college mates and old school mates. Her house is humongous! Me n Jo have a theory that all the houses in Glenmarie have rivers in them. Haha. I fell in, got one jeans leg wet and was almost the laughing stock of the night. I went upstairs to use her hair dryer but it doesn't work. I think cos it was coiled up so tight the wires disconnected. I forgot to tell her, so Ash i hope you're reading this. No pics from that night tho.

Been watching CSI CSI and more CSI. Jo's been so kind to burn season 5 and 6 for me. Hehe with payment of course, which was the ride to Ash's and back. hehe. See nothing in this life is free..

Met up with Ash Jo and Kel also for dinner on Federal Territory day. Went to Madam Kwan's which has superb food. i love the nasi bojari. its superblysplendiferous. It was dress down day, which means its a public holiday, but i didn't care lah! these were oldies but goldies who didn't give a shit what i looked like cos anything i wear now sure beats me in a school uniform. Gahaha.

Mum got me a sewing machine. Its really cool! Can sew straight stitches, zig zag, and lots of patterns. It can even do embroidery. I'm so impressed! And it comes with a table and some other free stuff. I'll post pics another time. I've been working it like mad haha.

Anyway time to go beddy bye now, enough of updates.

PIMA

no not pima cotton. more like, Pain in my ass.

CDFM is a real pain in my ass.

So what if this is public? Screw you.

You guys deserve to be wrenched out in public.

Sickos.

I'm real pissed cos of you.

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Why does everyone want me not to be me.

don't you understand?

not that i don't listen or admit i have a problem.

sure everyone has problems

i just don't want to confront that right now

i'm not superwoman.

fuck man.

let me handle one thing at a time la

im trying to get some things right, right now

so dont pile more things on my plate

See, im so freaking pissed at everyone and everybody and everything, i cursed.

Well, freedom of speech and artistic license and all that...

GAH.

why don't everyone just leave me alone.

go handle your perfect lives and perfect selves.

and leave me alone.

Pics from 2006

At the MIFW a couple of months back. My partner-in-crime was drooling over the girls...hahaha. It was here where i got the first inklings of what my future looks like.Agape Seremban. One of the only AFC outreaches this year and a first time joint collaboration with G4G. It was fun, right guys? Made us all yearn for more but oh well, not until we solve our stuff. Me and some soon-to-be famous people. Haha, dunno about that la. Ash and Jo, at TSB after their booklaunch. Go get the book, it's called Write Out Loud compiled by Karen Ann Thesiera *at least i think thats how to spell her name* if only for their two stories which i think are pretty interesting!

See! I'm doing your marketing for you two. You guys should pay me. Pics from Christmas Service 2006. My outfit was one of the least expensive of the years... coming up to a total of RM110. Good eh? The red bubble dress was a good find! Its really comfy and so worth the 35 bucks i paid for it. What can i say? I'm a cheap-skate, so sue me. Why waste all your money on one piece of clothing, when i can get four or five for less! Hahaha.

So there went 2006 and onwards to 2007. New sem starts in a week, man...hehe, i think i still have some outstanding assignments. Oh well.