a scene from Heroes that reminds me

(Matt sits at the bar with his drink and pops a bar mix. The bartender walks up to him.)

BARTENDER: How you doing?

MATT: Well, I'm, uh --

BARTENDER: (thinking) It's a rhetorical question. Just say "fine" and order a drink.

MATT: Uh, fine. Whatever you got on tap.

(The bartender fills Matt’s order.)

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This is common, no? People ask how are you, but don't wait for an answer or don't care to hear an answer. I prefer the "don't ask, don't tell". More honest that way.
At work i hear that a lot. "How are you?" "I'm good, you?" "Yeah, i'm good too." What kind of answer can you give to that sort of question anyway? "Well... I'm not really good." Would people ask why? Do people really want to know why? I doubt it.

one more month!

I cannot lie : I WILL BE OVERJOYED WHEN ALL THIS IS OVER and life gets back to normal. I can only take that much crazy for so long.

We're closing in and these people are super

Every day draws closer to the first day of a lifetime of marriage. By now, i am pretty happy to have the day come as quickly as possible. Most things are done. I say most. At this point, i am Ms Delegate Everything. Perfection will never be acheived and i will never be able to do everything myself. So i'm very happy to let everyone else handle everything.

Diana is doing this marvellous job with the fruitcake baking. She completed like 6 huge cakes in less than a week. I don't even LIKE fruit cake, but her's tastes quite nice. Maybe cos belum soak a lot in brandy yet. I don't like the brandy taste. She's also buying the legal copies of music to play at the two dinners. She's a gem!

My sister is coming back in 2 days! I'm very excited to have her back (so i can put her to work). Nolah! It's been so quiet without her. I dunno what i'm gonna do when i'm in my new home and alone when Adrian's not around.

The house is almost ours! Adrian's watching over the proceedings like a hawk. I can't wait to move in and redo the whole place. It's gonna look so cool (at least in my head la).

Mel and Nat are planning my bridal shower. Nat (who's also my day of coordinator) is continuously making me feel guilty for not being organized, hahaha! It's good, it's good! She's like the army general keeping me on my toes. Ah so many things i would forget if not for her. And i hear some interesting things are popping up for the shower. I'm not sure to be worried or excited =P

My mum did the trial cake! It was yummy but needed more orange flavor. Everyone in church got a taste and loved it! They all said it was very nice and moist and yummy. Can't wait to taste the real thing! Her dress oso came back from the tailor's oredi, it looks cool, especially with her super cun shoes. I'll put up photos soon.

My photographer has thrown in a free pre-wedding photoshoot too! So this Saturday, we're going on a field trip to Ipoh! Adrian bought me this really pretty dress to take photos in. The boy is so sweet.

A million other people are helping out in so many ways, i can hardly count! All in all, i'm very thankful for all the people who've helped out in any way. It means a lot to have everyone sorta being invested into this. I hope it means that in the same way, they will support our marriage as well, in praying for us and keeping us God-focused.

kolmekymmentä-kuusipäivää!

This dingbat of mine sent me a sweet email today :

Glad to see us preaching the gospel that gave us life and hope. Glad to see us preaching the gospel that gives us hope for a godly marriage. Glad for the union between Christ and his church. Glad for the union that is to be between you and me.

Well, i'm glad too =)

I'm glad i look young to you all, but why can't i see it?

Yet another person has declared to me today that they thought i was 18 yrs old til they found out my real age. Twice in a week is pretty spectacular. Haha. I just can't see it though, but i'm guessing that's cos i get to feel all my years.

awww

27.02.2010

The many faces of my fiance. So adorable.

Forty days and my legs hurt

A long weekend of tan lines, funny gadgets and more can't-waiting-to-get-married-to-my-man. Back to the real world of paying bills and organizing the amazing ceremony that i will be married in. I totally loved all the time to hear what God says to us about relationships over the weekend. Well, not all of it. I haven't quite gotten over my fear of procreational pain... but at least i am looking forward to embracing God's Creation Order. Marriage to serve God yo! If it ain't for that, it ain't nuthin'.

I'm officially on ministry break. I've been given a 3 month reprieve to prepare for everything upcoming and to make our marriage work. Still, there's so much to do!

the last post

I actually honestly don't know why i expect sinful people to behave in any other way than sinful. It's almost as though i try to believe in the best of people -even myself, which i know for a fact doesn't exist outside of the redemption by Jesus Christ for his holy people. Because the best of people is Jesus Christ.

So i figure my last post is unjustified.

But, all these emotional stuff is getting me down. I'm just really tired of being with people cos people make me unhappy. I'd really just rather curl up, under my blanket and sleep. ALONE. I would love to be a happy bride but that seems very elusive.

I have an unhelpful but true motto to life : If you want things done right, do it yourself.
It's true. Especially from recent events. But i think if you want things done right, even you can't do it yourself.

But anyway, in some specific cases, i think that motto works just fine =)

trying me

I'm so sick of people who dismiss frugal as cheap and tacky, think of creative innovation as weird and nobody-will-like-that, and comment on different ideas as eeyer-nobody-does-that and won't-look-nice-lar.

A question i'd like to ask is, are you the designer or am i?
Nuff said.

the world today has no appreciation for gospel values. not surprising. What's surprising is even Christians think this way. No appreciation for holiness. Marriage is merely something else in life, not related to the gospel and therefore you should just follow the world's standards. Why can't people praise the desire to remain holy before marriage by getting married? Why do people praise the pursuit of more money to achieve a certain expected standard of living and security instead of pursuing holiness? don't you all understand that we don't need to live in a big place with a big car and big bank accounts to start off with? What is wrong with renting a small place, with small cars and small pay? As long as we don't starve to death isn't it... Why do people think of marriage like an end to life? As if i won't have a life after the deed is done. For crying out loud. It's just ridiculous. that is why so many Christians fall into sexual sin before they're married. And what do people do? close one eye, they get married eventually don't they? When they can afford it wat... the whopping big wedding.

Sigh. That is the ugly raincloud that shadows my wedding. That is the worst that weddings bring out in people. If there were any good reason to elope, this comes close.

it's the forty niner.

My ring has no diamonds. My invitations were printed on my printer. My dress is hand made. My make up will be self done. What's more important? I'm marrying a good Christian man and we want to honor God with our lives together by being holy and gospel focused in everything we do.

My friends, flee from things that drag you away from Christ. Flee from things that distract you, color your perspective, entice you subtly. When man becomes your Lord rather than Christ, flee. When money becomes your Lord rather than Christ, flee. When your brother or mother or friend becomes your Lord rather than Christ, flee. There's only one God, one Lord. Only One, who's worthy of our wholehearted devotion and love. Only One who has saved us from these idols. Only One who asks us to follow Him, to take up our cross and suffer. And be blessed.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

Lima puluh hari lagi

There are so many things yet to be done and it's only 50 days more. I hope to finish my dress drafts this weekend so i can start on the real thing first week of March. We didn't start our marriage prep as planned last week, but we are doing the first one this Friday. We did however did this personality slash relationship assessment questionnaire which ended up quite weird. One thing to improve : definitely communication. And i think the questionnaire helped us identify areas we need to talk about or watch out for.

There's also the looming deadline for the house. We hope to move in as soon as we can to fix up the place, but i think that might be difficult. *stay positive!* Right now, it's just fun going shopping together for things we'll need for the house. It makes it almost real, like we're sooo close! It is a slight reality check too, cos things seem to be so expensive and we have to watch everything we spend on. I'm a regular old coupon cutter now, but i guess that's just the natural thing to do in spending our money wisely.

I can't believe we've reached the 50 day mark! FIFTY DAYS! That's crazy short! I just can't wait! Anticipation excitement nervousness all building up now!

We've also done our ceremony program. Well, almost done. But no reveals here, you'll just have to come and attend the ceremony to see what's gonna happen =P